I found out today that a high school friends’ brother was killed. He was trying to stop a fight and was killed by a bow and arrow. I keep thinking of the last few times I saw him. He was so cheerful and happy, and I didn’t have the time to talk with him. I am disappointed in myself that I suddenly feel grief over somebody I didn’t know that well. Why does it take a death to make me miss somebody and feel sadness? His whole family was always so good to me and I can’t imagine the pain they are going through. They are a wonderful Christian family which makes this so much sadder. Am I just dwelling on this because it’s so tragic? I want to reach out to his sister who was such a close friend in high school, but I feel like I should have done so before this happened. There were many opportunities and I didn’t do it. I feel almost inappropriate to reach out after all these years only because a tragedy happened. This is a reminder to cherish your friends and family. Keep in touch with the good people in your life. Be kind to others because you never know what they may be going through.
Before heading out to celebrate on new years eve I had some alone time to do a tarot reading for the year ahead. Somebody told me cedarwood oil is useful for opening your psychic channels and enhancing your spirituality, so I dabbed some on my wrists then lit my candles and cleared my mind. I wanted to do something a little different so I chose 2 decks to use, Fantastical and Sacred Sites. They provided a nice contrast against each other. I set out 2 cards for each month plus one rune. I’m new to runes but they’ve already been spot-on for me! It was nice to relax and meditate on my future possibilities. I wrote down my initial first impressions and can’t wait to see what lies ahead. For January I drew the 10 of chalices and 2 of swords, with the ehwaz rune. What would you make of this combination? Did you do any special readings or rituals for the new year? Did you make any resolutions? Please share!
While cleaning out the dark depths of my closet I found 2 old iPhone boxes. If you’ve ever had one you know how thick and sturdy they are, and how hard it is to throw them away because you swear you’ll find some purpose for them some day! (Or maybe I’m just a pack rat…) Coincidentally, a few days before this I happened to be wishing I had extra Tarot boxes for some of my decks. Well, what do you know… I finally found a purpose for these boxes I hoarded for years!
Watch me give them a facelift in my YouTube video!
Interesting that my last entry was written about the full moon also. I’ve just been so entranced by the moon lately! On Thursday night I was sitting in the dining room and the bright energy of the Harvest Moon was calling to me. I grabbed my Universal Fantasy Tarot deck and a pen and paper, then made myself cozy on the patio in the moonlight. I sifted through my deck and picked 2 cards that represented troubles I need to leave behind and 2 that represented what I would like to move forward towards. I placed these 4 cards around the Moon card. I lit a blue candle to help promote a peaceful and tranquil environment. Then I wrote down my reasons for picking each card and how I planned on letting go of my troubles and how I intended to move forward. I sat there just soaking in the moonlight and appreciating the fresh, crisp, night air. When I felt ready, I lit my paper in the candle and let it burn on the ground, releasing my energies and willpower into the Universe.
The next day I got called for a job interview and it looks like I’ve got the job!
We all need to take small moments out of our hectic, daily routines and just relax with Nature and Mother Earth and the Universe!
Last night was not only a full moon, but it was a blue moon! I felt the energy the night before and I love it; It makes me feel alive and frisky, almost mischievous! I let the cats outside and played with them in the backyard for a while, it makes me so happy watching them romp in the bushes. Then I gathered all my rocks and crystals together and set them outside to soak up the moons rays overnight. It cleanses and rejuvenates them, makes them feel extra vibrant! I also refreshed my memory of the mysterious Moon tarot card…
“If you look around the room right now, you will (probably) see people and objects that are comforting in their familiarity. Everything is exactly as you expect it to be. You know that if you closed your eyes and opened them, the room would be the same. But…have you ever lost the familiar and found, in its place, a world so extraordinary you can’t even grasp it? This is the experience of the Moon.
Most of the time we live in a tiny pocket of normality that we wrap around us like a security blanket. We turn our backs on the mysterious universe that waits outside. From time to time we may sneak a peak with our imagination, or venture out through fantasy or expanded awareness. We can be thrust out there unprepared through drugs, madness or intense experiences such as battle.
The Moon is the light of this realm – the world of shadow and night. Although this place is awesome, it does not have to be frightening. In the right circumstances, the Moon inspires and enchants. It holds out the promise that all you imagine can be yours. The Moon guides you to the unknown so you can allow the unusual into your life.
Sadly, we are usually afraid of the Moon. In readings, this card often stands for fears and anxieties – the ones that come in the darkest part of the night. Card 18 also stands for illusions. It is easy to lose our way in the moonlight. Be careful not to let deceptions and false ideas lead you astray. Sometimes the Moon is a signal that you are lost and wandering aimlessly. You must find your way back to the path and your clarity of purpose.” From LT.com
When I lay down I look out my window and I see the same stars every night. Gazing at them makes me feel peaceful and for those few moments everything in my world is alright. I feel like they know me and I know them. I fall asleep knowing I’m being watched over by sparkling guardians in the sky.
The other day I was thinking of things to write in my journal to cheer me up, and this idea struck me. I thought I would share with you because we can never have too much happiness in our lives!
Take 10 minutes out of your regular routine. Sit down and write a letter to somebody you appreciate. Perhaps a friend or relative or teacher. Don’t overthink it. Just say what you feel and tell them how much they mean to you. Giving a random letter to somebody will surely make them smile! And not only will they smile but YOU will feel happy too!
I am always happiest when exploring, traveling, driving away. Away from home. Unknown destinations never frighten me, rather they excite me. An energy awakens from somewhere deep inside me and it thrums along my body; sometimes it gives me butterflies in my stomach. I want to go further, I want to stay longer, I want to meet more people, I want to see more. I never want the adventure to end.
It started when I was a young girl. I would walk or ride my bike as far in the neighborhood as I dared. There was a large desert with canyons that I would wander through, always imagining setting up a tent and staying there. When I got my license, my best friend and I would drive all over the city and explore abandoned buildings or stargaze on our hoods while parked somewhere in the middle of nowhere. When I was a little older I started driving to LA. I loved the tall buildings and all the noise and commotion. I would go to clubs and bars I had never heard of. I met bums on the street and chatted with them. I imagined living in a cheap apartment, decorating it cute, and walking to work because it was too crowded to drive. I got even older and started dating people out of town; Palm Springs and Huntington Beach were memorable places. The beach is filled with happy people. People wearing swimsuits all day, surfing, skateboarding, walking their dogs, not seeming to have any cares in the world. It always thrills me to leave my city and stay in another one.
Yet here I am, STILL in my city. Still no clue what to do with my life. I have a gypsy soul but it seems caged and unable to fly.
On Thursday night my baby boy had emergency surgery and passed away. My heart has shattered. Some pets leave imprints on your life that will always remain. He was barely 2 years old but because of his sweet personality he had a huge impact on my family. Everybody who met him fell in love. He had such a remarkable personality for a cat and I can’t believe his life was so short. He was fine one day and gone the next. I took him to the vet because he seemed to be breathing funny and I didn’t think it was a big deal. They took xrays and found an air pocket outside of his lungs. They did surgery and he passed away. We will never know what caused it or why. That’s so hard, not knowing why. And wondering if I could have done something different. I know the grieving process and I know time will make it easier but right now I feel like I’m in a nightmare. I just want to stop crying and hurting. My mom is a wreck too. We took his body to be cremated and we pick him up tomorrow. We are going to spread his ashes under his favorite tree in the backyard.
Please send your thoughts to my family and I, we are all devastated.
Rest In Peace, you beautiful monster.
“ It is almost impossible to describe happiness, because at the time it feels entirely natural, as if all the rest of your life has been the aberration; only in retrospect does it swim into focus as the rare and precious thing it is. When it is present, it seems to be eternal, abiding forever, and there is no need to examine it or clutch it. Later, when it has evaporated, you stare in dismay at your empty palm, where only a little of the perfume lingers to prove that once it was there, and now is flown. ”
- Margaret George
Live with intention.
Walk to the edge.
Play with abandon.
Choose with no regret.
Appreciate your friends.
Continue to learn.
Do what you love.
Live as if this is all there is.
-Mary Anne Radmacher
I first saw this quote on a journal cover and every time I read it, each line makes me smile. I absolutely love it.
Which line stands out most to you? Do you have any favorite quotes?
One of my absolute favorite hobbies is collecting rocks, minerals, and crystals! Since I was little I was obsessed with picking them up on walks and buying them in little shops. I love the energy in them and when I hold them I feel my spirits lift. I am amazed at the beauty that comes from this earth. Here are a few of my favorites! And don’t forget to check out my crystal creations on Etsy.
My boyfriend and I were in our room sitting on the bed. It was night time. In the corner of my eye I saw something outside the window. Eric pointed in the distance and we noticed it was a pack of wolves roaming in the yard. I didn’t want the wolves around so I went to the window and started shouting through it, hoping to scare them away. My voice wasn’t loud enough so I started to pound on the glass. That attracted their attention and they came menacingly towards the window. I was getting scared. One of them jumped up and growled and snarled at me. His saliva was smearing on the window. I had the impression he was hungry and really wanted to eat me.
I am standing behind a window. Glass is fragile; it will only hold the wolves back for so long before it breaks. The ravenous wolves represent some issue/problem that I need to face. I need to stop hiding behind a fragile barrier and confront my problems. A window should be a peaceful thing that offers a view of the outside and let’s light in. The wolves are upsetting my peace of mind and my inner-self is telling me I need to face them in order to move on.
I have suspicions but if only I knew for sure what this problem was!
I gilded my own Tarot cards.
I’ve always wanted a gilded Tarot deck but I don’t like any that I’ve seen. That inspired me to make my own gilded cards. I got some paint markers and rubber-banded my cards super tight. I colored one side at a time, pinching the deck close together where I was painting. I crossed my fingers while they dried, undid the band, and voila! I was surprised it worked so well. As you can see in the last photo there was some bleeding onto the face of the cards but it blends ok with the borders, I don’t mind at all! I think they came out fantastically.
I was happy with the results so I did silver on another deck. It’s less noticeable but still adds a touch of glimmer.
These are some pictures from a hike through beautiful Placerita Canyon a few weeks ago. It was a warm day but down in the canyon it was cool and damp. The place feels so alive and magical. I love the smell of the air, the birds, all kinds of plants and trees… I live in a desert so it’s fascinating to see this much lush greenery!
The Mystic Dreamer Tarot is a popular deck. The companion book written by Barbara Moore is very detailed and thoroughly discusses each card, making it great for beginners. The symbolism follows the Rider-Waite style. The court cards are Page, Knight, Queen, King. The deck itself is very feminine, featuring young and good-looking characters. At first I felt this was better suited for a teenager but the more I handled the cards and read with them, the more I began to love them. If I had to use one word to describe this deck I would use Lush. Every card has so much detail and activity going on! I’m not a fan of the borders but I can live with that. Overall I do recommend this deck. I recommend any of Barbara Moore’s books and decks.
I decided to share pictures of my altar because of this post by The Pink Pagan. Most of you probably look at this and think, what the heck, that’s not an altar! Compared to a Wiccan altar mine is very UN-conventional. All the spiritual work I do is with Tarot and Crystals so that’s what takes up my altar space. Although I really do need a table soon! To me, an altar has no definitive setup. An altar can be any little space where you place objects that are special to you. It can be a place to relax, meditate, worship, and connect to your spirituality. And like The Pink Pagan said “…it should be sacred to you–not anyone else.“
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You will need:
- A glass jar, a glass bowl, or any kind of glass vessel
- 3 petals from any flower
- A dash of sugar
- An opal, or a citrine crystal, or rhodonite or rhodochrosite. If you do not have any of these stones, go outside for a walk and pick up the first stone that attracts your eye.
Cleanse your chosen stone by running it under water until you feel it is refreshed. Hold the stone between your palms and think of all the things you don’t like about yourself, all the reasons you are self-conscious. Imagine the stone absorbing all that negative energy and feel your spirits lift as you do this.
Place your stone into the vessel and fill it with water. Sprinkle the sugar in the water and visualize the sweetness overcoming the negative thoughts you sent into the stone. Next take the 3 petals and drop them in 1 at a time, saying the following or something similar: I am charming. I am beautiful. I am confident.
Place the vessel on your bathroom counter for 3 days. On the 3rd day take the vessel outside and pour the contents onto the ground. The power of your ritual is now fully released. You may retrieve your stone or leave it.
Now go out into the world and walk with your head held high and a smile on your face!
(I created this ritual. Please do not copy or publicly post it without my permission.)